Here it is, I waited it out but now I need to share....

I have put off sharing this with the board because I didn't know how I felt and tried to convince myself that I wasn't too worried. Well the truth is that I'm scared to death for my little boy.

Here's the whole story:

A couple weeks ago Korbin was swinging from the swing hanging from the tree in our yard. Kirke was pushing him as he usually does. He was really high when the metal clip connecting the swing to the rope broke. (this is very strange because a whole chunk of this ring came off, it wasnt rusted, bent or compromised in anyway and we can't find that piece) I was cooking dinner and Kirke yelled from the door to bring a towel. Korbins nose was bleeding and Kirke told me what had happened. Korbin wasn't really crying just wimpering really. I called Brandy, told her Korbin was hurt needed to go to ER could she watch Tate. Of course she said yes.

We got into the car and I told Tate that when we got to Brandy's he had to get right out and go inside because we had to get his brother to the hospital. He said "ok, this is an emergency right mom?" i said yes and he said "ok this is an emergency" he got right out of the car and went right into the house no problems at all. (this is very unusual for him).

Anyhow, Kirke dropped me at the door and I carried Korbin in, he was breathing very shallow and was struggling to stay awake. They took us right back to a room but then no one came in to see him. Finally I made Kirke go get someone because he wasn't breathing right and was in a lot of pain. They came in started an IV and gave him morphine for the pain. He complained of pain in his stomach. They sent us for a CT scan. Then back to our room and more morphine and motrin for Korbin. The first dose knocked out the pain the second dose made him very silly.

The CT scan showed no internal bleeding like they had feared so his injuries from the fall were only that he had bruised his abdominal wall from the impact of the fall along with his tailbone and face. However the CT scan also showed that he had a problem with one of his kidneys that was completely unrelated to the fall. (A blessing in disguise??) We followed up the next day with the Urologist here and he referred us to Columbia to see the pediatric urology surgeon for more tests.

Two days later we went to Columbia and the doctor looked at the CT scan and said that Korbin has a "duplicated collection system" of the left kidney. They also said that that kidney was swollen. They wouldn't know what to do with it until they completed another test. That test was Monday November 26th. They had to put him to sleep and then they used some nuclear dye to follow the function of his kidneys. He took forever to wake up and we almost missed his appt with the Urologist because he was still sleeping in the recovery room. At that point I picked him up from his bed and made him wake up because we were not gonna make that drive another day just to meet with the doctor. We got down to the dr's office there in the hospital (because he couldnt just take the elevator up to us, grrrrr) and Korbin started throwing up.

The doctor told us that the renal scan showed that there are two tubes coming off the left kidney instead of one like he should have. It also showed that the tube nearest the bottom was blocked and the kidney was draining really slowly.

Now we had to make a choice. Choice A: we could repeat this test every 6 months (they tell us as Korbin is puking his little guts out) until the kidney begins to die off in the area of the blocked tube then they would do surgery to remove the dead part of the kidney as well as the tube. At this time he reassured us that a person can live with only 1/3 of one kidney.....that's reassuring! Choice B: we could let them go ahead and do the surgery now and hopefully save the entire kidney.

The choice was easy we want it fixed now. The surgery is not so easy. We go to Columbia on the 16th for pre-op. We'll stay the night and surgery will be on the 17th. The problem is that they won't know what they have to do until they get in there. It'll be about a 3 inch incision (seems huge for my baby) then they will take xrays and determine their plan of action. They said he'll have to stay at least two nights in the hospital but they don't know for sure. They don't know how long the surgery will take and that really bothers me. And not knowing how long he'll be in the hospital afterward has me worried too. I wish they knew what was blocking the tube, that would ease my mind too.

Kirkes mom bought a plane ticket and will be here the 12th so that she can spend some time with him before he's miserable. Then she and Tayton will go to Columbia with us and stay in an hotel. She will be here for 3 weeks total.

So there you have it, we need prayers. I'm scared for my little boy, I'm scared of what they might find once they get inside there. I'm scared because this isn't a routine surgery like his tonsils were. I'm just plain scared and now I'm finally admitting that to myself and everyone else as I sit up at 1:30 in the morning alone.

If you made it to bottom of this message I thank you, it was long but I needed it all out there.