Korbin's Heart Break AND My Fan Might Attack!!

Today has been a busy day! I got up and got little guy to school, came home hoping to relax. I'm still learning the meaning of that word! I folded some clothes vacuumed the floor and waited on the housing maintenance guy Dean (who knows us way too well) to come and bulldoze my piece of crap falling down brand new house adjust my ceiling fan AGAIN because its about to fall out of my ceiling.

This particular fan sits right above my bed. My bed sits high off the ground and the ceiling clearance isn't enough for me to swing wildly to even stand up straight on the bed to dust the fan blades cause I'm a Suzy Homemaker....or not.

My point is that I could easily be lying in bed one night trying to sleep and have my body chopped to bits by a ceiling fan that suddenly rattles free and falls the few inches between my bed and the ceiling. I've been very scared but I need the fan on to sleep. Up until last night I had been sleeping all huddled up at the far end of the bed in hopes of not being chopped to bits in my sleep but last night the horrible sound was too unbearable to sleep through so I had to turn off that fan and wrote a note on my hand to call housing:

Dear Idiot Self,
Call the freakin housing people to come fix the fan. Jacking up the house to level it all out was great but now there are nails coming through my ceilings and the fan might chop me to bits.
Sincerely,
Sleepless in the Fort

That note on my hand reminded me to call, it worked it really worked! And I'm not dying of ink poisoning like my mom always said I would so there!

Dean came and fixed the fan today, yay for me! Now I might get a good nights sleep again. Then Roxy took me and three dogs for a little walk. We walked Korbin to school and then she and I continued on a ways. Later we drove it to see how far and it was 3.5 miles, woohoo us!

The book fair is here this week at school. That's kinda my thing to help with so I roped Roxy into helping out too. Tayton and her 8 year old were put to work as well.

Then I went and stole dinner from Amber again. Tomorrow I might actually stay home. They all feel sorry for me like a little abandoned puppy so I'm milking it! Just kidding guys! I'm so grateful to have such a great group of friends here who take care of me and put up with my stupidness.

Poor little Korbin!


He broke my heart tonight!

Tayton, who hasn't shut up for more than 3 seconds all day long I believe, was laying in his bed, alone in his room just talking away! I went up to tell him to shut up and go to sleep check on my little angel and sing him to sleep. After I was done I went to peek in on Korbin who was very quiet so I figured he was being bad sleeping peacefully. I opened his door and he was under his covers like always. I heard him sniffling. I walked over and bent down and asked him what was wrong. He looked up at me and said in the sweetest little voice "I'm sad that my daddy left". I just crawled right in bed with him and held him. Upon doing so I found that his little pillow was just soaked in tears! I tried hard not to cry. I told him it's okay to miss Daddy and that I miss Daddy too.

This time is going to be really rough. We're looking at 17 months of no Daddy. Tayton handles that better than most kids, probably because he's too busy being attached to my hip to notice Daddy! No I shouldn't say that, he's become pretty outgoing lately! But I'm his rock. He does pretty good if I'm around. Korbin needs a balance of people in his life. He needs to have more than just me for his recommended daily dose of love, hugs, tickles, laughs and authority. He has become very attached to Amber's husband Christian over the past few weeks and is going to be crushed when he leaves soon too. Then their daddy, my Kirke, will be home for a couple weeks and then gone for 15 months. these poor kids can't get a break. I hope it gets easier after summer is over.


I have more to share but it will have to wait until tomorrow........if I survive a night under the blades of death!